Tuesday, January 04, 2005
RHAPSODY Link
posted by Samuel on 10:58 PM
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Monday, November 22, 2004
Two Question that came up to my mind as I was just thinking about stuff on my own:
Rather than asking "How well do you know me" , I ask: "How easy do you think it is to get to know me?"
Also:
"The presence of *fill in person's name* is like *fill in any descriptive phrases*"
I think these two things determines how close I am with people. Leave your answer to the first one, and ask yourself constantly on the second one, it's possible that it'll turn out to be a very good compliment to some people, and maybe u should say it to encourage the person!
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editing after 25 min:
another question i guess: If you were to call Sam, what would be the reason?
ALSO: i'm using my xanga more now, so u can check xanga too!! www.xanga.com/mountain7cat
posted by Samuel on 3:30 AM
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Saturday, November 06, 2004
Majesty. Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am. Empty Handed but alive in your hands.
Daphne's LJ encouraged me mucho. I dont know her well enough to the point that I can say, "she has grown in the Lord", but from my one year of knowing her i felt that she's so keenly aware about Lord's presence and His glory than ever before. Maybe she always have kept it to herself rather than LJing these thought, so it's possible that she always IS aware but I did not know. No matter what the case is, I'm fully encouraged:
"It's my prayer that my life, personality, and every aspect about me reflects my faith in God, and that everything that you can see/sense/feel from me is God given and everything good about me is growing because of Him. I wasn't born like this, with a smile on my face, always wanting to help, and loving people who aren't so often loved. God has encouraged me to be ever loving and faithful as a servant, and that's what I try to do."
I grew up in church, my dad went into full time ministry because of me. I consider that a blessing that is LIFE ALTERING, because my dad was making it big in the computer industry, and if he hadn't gone into ministry, I probably would have grown up a rich, spoiled, arrogant kid. Praise the Lord for His mercy. I probably will never quite understand the experiences of those who has been touched by God and was changed completely 180 degree from who they were, afterall, i'm a PK turned out well (Lord I pray for humbleness, because it is You who molded me this way). Possibly, Daphne is like that. Equally possible, that chane was gradual. Throughout my life I can remember hundreds of 180 degree life change testimonies, while I say i praise the Lord for these testimonies, the ones that truly moves me are the small changes that the Lord is initiating in the people around, and myself as well.
Majesty. Majesty. Forever I am changed by your Love. In the presence of your Majesty.
Amen
posted by Samuel on 9:03 AM
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Monday, October 18, 2004
Alright so i promised to xanga/blog about this
Last Thursday Carson, Dan, and I were hanging out at Strada (Caroline, Jessica, Amy Lee, Michael, and Jenn, as this story will attest, also joined us later), and as we were walking in we saw this girl sitting over there who looked a lot like Jenn Shao. I waved at her and she didn't reply, so i'm even more convinced that she is not Jenn Shao but someone who looks extremely like her.
me: "Carson she looks like Jenn!"
carson:"She is Jenn. Go say hi"
I still didn't think she's Jenn.
me:"no i dont think it's her. But she looks so much like Jenn."
At this pt I had this urge to just take her picture and show it to Jenn to show her there's this one girl who i saw who looked so much like her. But I refrained, thinking that it's not nice to take a picture of a stranger, cuz it's not polite. And then the girl looked up and smiled and waved at us. It is Jenn. ^^;; i almost took a picture of her and was gonna show it to her ranting how much this girl looked like her... it's a lot more funnier when it happened.
Another conversation snippet during an intllectual discussion that day:
Jenn: "So when is it uncomfortable? that's different for everyone right?" (or something that goes along this line)
Carson: "hmmmm.... lemme think, if i'm a girl when do i think it's too close..."
me: "dont get Carson confused..."
Jenn, Carson, me: *bout of lanughters*
posted by Samuel on 6:05 PM
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Monday, October 04, 2004
I learn to not really care about who reads my xanga/blog. Those who cares will be interested.
Read Grace's and Pam's xanga today, and since i dont have them subscribed (until today), i did something i haven't done in a long time - xanga surf. Wellz their entries made me feel like i have a lot to say.
I got a cellphone TODAY - rather than telling all the people all the time that i will get one, i just decided today that i will just go and get one and be on the move - i think that helps generally in life.
God is good. Sundays and Fridays have been good to me, there's always new things you find yourself realizing in God's truth. Today as PK talked about allowing the scriptures to speak to you and let it speaks for itself rather than you look into it too much with your own bias, it made me realize that this faith i have is mine - not given to me by my parents or pastor - but my own. It sounds weird to say this - since I'm a PK and all - but I got a deeper feeling of how my faith is closer to me than I thought. All this blabbering is not helpful to my readers. These couple of weeks as PK preached on orderly worship, and when he talked about speaking in tongue and about how when Paul uses the rhetoric in Corinthians "does all speak in tongue" it implied that the answer was no (there were also other scriptures that backs such notion), and tongue is a gift not for everyone. My original understanding from my home youth pastor was that everyone with the holy spirit can speak in tongue and all Christians have the spirit, which we all agree. I feel that this is a minor pt to be frustrated over, and I am not, because having been with my home youth pastor and Pastor Ken - they are both people of God, by their experiences and how God has worked in their life - regardless of which is the correct view. However this did make me realize that my faith is my faith, no some thing that's been preached to me and I have to decide what I head is right. That spirit of discernment - i think both of them will agree is needed. Secondly "allowing the scriptures to speak for itself" that was also something that i find myself and people in general overlook unconsciously. I will let the scriptures do that now - which means more analysis and focused Bible study and really see what the scriptures is saying rather than reading into it on my own. Maybe I did before, maybe I didnt, but now I have the insight to realize that I shouldn't. Praise God for that.
After all of that - I will ask my dad for a third opinion about the gift of tongue. Part of discernment is asking several people of God. Praise the Lord that I have all these wonderful spiritual resources in my life.
Keep me close to you Lord.
And as He stands in victory
Sins' curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought the precious blood of Christ
Amen
posted by Samuel on 1:53 AM
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Monday, September 20, 2004
Wise words from PK:
Don't take yourself too seriously, but take God seriously.
posted by Samuel on 1:31 AM
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Tuesday, September 14, 2004
So School started
I haven't updated this in awhile. Forgive me, I think I wasn't motivated enough. That being said, I read Elise's recent blog entry, and that motivated me to blog again. Props to her! So I was reading and I realize how much I have changed from when I just came out of High School. A semester(or quarter, for most of you) apart, you're a totally different person. What doesn't change is who your friends are. Friends from High school will always remain those who you treasure the most from that period of time. After all, those times when we studied together, hung out together, did Physics together, went to conferences together, did homework together (or copied together). Those were good times that I will not forget. Reading about Elise's reconcilliation w/ one of her best friends is something that lifted me a lot. her struggle over this issue has been well-documented(by herself) and I'm a close follower on that (i guess there are people who wants to be yangsty ^^). Both of them were people I know and at times one can't but feel bad for disagreement amongst those who know you. For all the bitterness that was read, it is wonderful how we're all maturing, and witnessing that is an unexplanable experience. Then I reflected upon the party we had at the end of summer, where many gathered at SamK's house and we just hung out like old time. I remember I found myself realizing that we're a group of almost-20-yrs-old, and we played ping-pong, DDR, Magic (for some, not for me). Rosalyn pinched William and wiggled like she did and I commented: "can you imagine 10 years from now when we all hung out together again, and Rosalyn will have her 5-yr-old boy with her and she'll be pinching William: 'oOo! Poke Poke! (to her kid)And don't talk with your mouth full!' " I'm throughly amused. The MOB were there too, and that made me realize this "HS classmates" bond isn't as weak as I perceived. Of course, being an EECS major i must add nerdiness into this entry by:
STEC is a subset of The MOB, but only a subset, not the same as STEC, of the MOB came to the party.
And my cousin was there, I realize that we're so tied together, even though distance between us can be thousands of miles.
Thing will change. Friends will not. We can't stop people entering and leaving our life. But when we see those we cared about once again after a long time, there will be a smile, remembering that time when we laughed, lamented, even cried together.
posted by Samuel on 1:47 AM
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